I don't know what I'm doing


As human beings, we crave structure, a schedule, a routine. We are creatures of habit even if we don't want to admit it. 

Read The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky. One of the major themes focuses on our desire to be told what to do. And there is an argument there. We like order. We prefer rules—which is why it's the first thing we do when we start something—we create constitutions, develop handbooks, draft amendments. 

This is how our society is set up. It's part of human nature to seek to design and create a well-thought-out system. Which is why it's so difficult for us to admit that (for the most part) we really don't know what we're doing. 

The thing is, nobody really knows what they are doing. The best thing you can do is to play to your strengths and be consistent with it. Little by little, you'll develop a routine that will help you improve upon your incomplete way of doing things. And remember this, if you are looking for the perfect flow, the ideal process, the smooth-running organization where everyone knows their jobs and always does them, then you'll spend your whole life searching in dissatisfaction. Why? Because we are human beings—imperfect ones. We make a lot of mistakes. 

Always having to be told what to do is taking the easy way out. It's a form of hiding. It's placing the blame instead of taking responsibility. The truth is, we're all just making it up as we go. So don't get frustrated when things don't go as planned. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Because in a culture where systems are run by individuals, the skills of being adaptable and working efficiently in ambiguity make you more valuable than ever.